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Tuesday, October 15, 2013

How I Met Myself

A strange meeting
I was walking home from my office one January evening. It was a Monday. The weather was very cold, and there were some low clouds around the tops of the buildings. Once I’d left the main road, there weren’t many people in the dark, narrow streets of Budapest’s Thirteenth District. Everything was very quiet. It felt as if the city was waiting for something.

What I saw at that moment, in that dark winter street was very strange, and I felt very afraid. Because what I saw was me. My face looking down at me. My mouth saying sorry.

Getting to know me

Perhaps I’d better tell you something about me before I go on with the rest of this story.

We live on the Pest side of the city, not far from the Danube. The old part of the Thirteenth District where we live is an area of narrow streets full of small shops, bars and restaurants. It still feels like an old city. And it was in one of these streets that I met myself.

‘You smell of wine and smoke!’ said Andrea, as I was standing by the front door, taking off my coat and boots. ‘What have you been doing?’

Until I met myself, I had always thought myself to be a normal, intelligent person. I thought I understood more or less how the world around me worked, even my new world in Budapest. But what happened that night in the street had changed something inside me, and I couldn’t get it out of my mind. I kept seeing myself on the ground in that dark, snowy street, looking up at myself. I felt terribly afraid.

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Sunday, October 13, 2013

How I Met Myself Part II

Chapter 5

I tell Andrea

Chapter 6

‘It’s difficult for me, too,’ I said.

Chapter 7

After that Saturday my life returned to what it had been, in one way. I went back to work on Monday and I was my old self, and things went well. I didn’t have the dreams at night any more. And I didn’t visit Felka utca and the bar every night either, although I still went in once or twice a week.

However, between all these new things in our life, I didn’t forget my strange meeting with ‘myself’. I started doing lots of reading about life after death. It was a completely new thing for me, and I found it very interesting. I learnt many things I didn’t know. Perhaps the most interesting thing I found out was that what had happened to me has a name:

I showed Andrea the page from the book I was reading.

Chapter 8

A holiday

In August Andrea gave up working for Zsolt. We spent my summer holiday happily painting a small room in our flat so that it was ready for the baby, and on September 16 th our daughter was born. We gave her the name Kati. After that, things changed even more as we got used to all the differences a new baby makes to her parents’ lives. It was hard work, but we were very happy. And I was so busy that for a while I forgot about what had happened in Felka utca.

We decided to go to England at Christmas. We wanted my parents and family to meet Kati, and this was a good chance. We soon learnt how difficult it is to go on holiday with a small baby. You need to take so many things! It took us a very long time to get ready.

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Saturday, October 12, 2013

How I Met Myself Part III

The date gets closer again

At three 0′ clock in the morning on January 11 th I suddenly sat up in bed. I listened. Kati wasn’t crying (in fact, she usually slept all through the night by then).

I walked up and down again and again, with thoughts running quickly through my head. It was the date that was important. My reading about ghosts and life after death had helped me to find out about doppelgangers, but I still didn’t understand. What I needed to do was to find out what had happened in Felka utca or Gergely Utca one January 18 th in the past.

The six days which followed that night were very difficult.

The dream was almost the same, except that I now seemed to hear a loud noise in the street just before the man came out of the door. I tried to understand what the loud noise was. I listened in my dream, but it wasn’t very clear. I knew it was something important, something that would help me, but I couldn’t be sure what it was. I often woke up after the dream and felt afraid. I stayed awake in the dark trying to decide what the dream was trying to tell me. I also worried about what was going to happen if I met my doppelganger again on Sunday.

Chapter 10

January 18 th

Sunday started very quietly. We didn’t talk much to each other. Both Andrea and I were unsure of what we were going to do and what might happen.

We walked the rest of the way home without speaking. When Petra had left, we didn’t talk very much all evening. For me, everything had been the same as last year. Except that this time there had been no snow to show that the man had left no footprints, and the bar he went into had been closed.

How I Met Myself

Life is a journey. Through ups and downs and twists and turns, it goes on, teaching us values, morals, ethics, feelings, and every other tiny thing that build us up as a complete person. When I was a kid, I believed there are two junctions in the world with only three trains running in between them, which takes everybody from my town to my grandparents’ and back, because that is where we always spent our vacations! Just like that, along with expanding my world with every new train ride to a new destination, I learned how basic definitions of “love”, “care”, “friendship”, “jealousy”, “hatred”, etc changes for every other person by meeting new people.

I reflected on my dad’s rational way of thinking and my mom’s heart full of empathy. It was always difficult for me to see eye-to-eye with everybody. Some are too skeptical, some are too gullible, some are too ignorant, while some are too cold. And I know it is not just me, we all face this problem.

I remember a conversation with a close friend where I was trying to make a point that, severe monetary struggles in the early stages of my parents’ life and they still ending up happily together 30 years and running, has made me believe that we should prioritize love and when the heart is at peace, the mind gets strengthened to fight anything. He pointed out that he has seen the exact struggle with the same result, only to come up with the conclusion that we should prioritize the well-being first, and when life is comfortable, love grows eventually. It was hard to argue for both of us, we both had a concrete base to our versions. That was the day I realized, it is foolish to convince the world my point-of-view. Because my view originates from a point which is me, and only mine. Until I met myself.

So, guys, this is the story of How I Met Your Mother …. sorry, How I Met Myself!

Ted Mosby, the architect, is an average guy. He is not the one who will catch your eye first in a room. But he is the one whom everybody somehow knows personally at a party, a friend to all. He is the one with the sad eyes, the one who is interested in the history of the oldest tower or can recite a poem which suits a moment the best. He is me.

The show is Ted’s journey from being a hopeless romantic single in New York City to a widowed father of two, still not ready to give up on love!

I fell in love when I was young. My mom knew I was a dreamer, a romantic at heart. And she never stopped me from loving, rather she taught me how to love someone right. But I made mistakes, I took decisions that showed me the best and worst faces of love. At times I do feel tired. It is hard being a single woman, struggling to build a career, trying to make it on my own. The search for a partner, the one who will support, love, care, and share, to be honest, feels like a never-ending tunnel. Some say I try too hard, some say I am doing it all wrong, some say I am not making whole-hearted efforts. But you know what I feel? “ If you’re not scared, then you’re not taking a chance. If you’re not taking a chance, then what the hell are you doing anyway?”

Yes, I relate to the journey of Ted. His bumping and hurting and winning and losing through the endless repetitions of “ Haa…aaave you met Ted?” to “ Guys, I think she might be The One”. Doesn’t matter if somethings feel like mistakes, “ Here’s the thing about mistakes: Sometimes, even when you know something’s a mistake, you gotta make it anyway.” … to learn, grow, and maybe come back and make the same mistake again, because whom am I kidding, some mistakes are worth making over and over, just for the sake of it!

There was a time in my life when I was talking to two guys at the same time. They both had ways to make me feel special, they were handsome, liked me very much, and if I chose either of them, I would have two, maybe very different, but happy lives. I had my ‘yellow legal pad’ out with a neat list of the pro-s and con-s for both. Only to realize, if I can compare them with another, that defeats the entire case of one of them being The One. And this was way before I even started watching the series and caught Ted in the same situation, taking the same decision. He said, “ I don’t want to be choosing between two girls. I want to be a complete head over heels idiot for one!”

With every time Ted taking a girl out on a date, I can feel how honestly he believes that this time things will work out. I am the same. I am ashamed of not being ashamed of catching myself daydreaming marrying a guy I have been on three dates with.

Because that is who I am. I am the one who loves to love. “ Love does not make sense. You can’t logic your way into or out of it. Love is totally nonsensical. But we have to keep doing it, or else we are lost and love is dead, and humanity should just pack it in. Because love is the best thing we do.”

I am always the one who will never give up on love, who will never stop trying to find the one, who will sit across the love of her life counseling him to not give up on his girlfriend, only to prove her loyalty towards friendship. “ If you’re looking for the word that means caring about someone beyond all rationality and wanting them to have everything they want no matter how much it destroys you, it’s love. And when you love someone you just, you…you don’t stop, ever. Even when people roll their eyes, and call you crazy. Even then. Especially then. You just– you don’t give up. Because if I could just give up…if I could just, you know, take the whole world’s advice and– and move on and find someone else, that wouldn’t be love. That would be… that would be some other disposable thing that is not worth fighting for.” is what I believe in.

Sometimes some characters, be it in real or reel-life just remind you not to give up. I remember staying up all night to finish writing my thesis after watching “The Pursuit of Happyness” and I will never forget the motivation I derived from it. I guess at the age of 27 when almost everybody around me is secretly running the race of who gets settled the best, my radar-less boat of old-school romance needed Ted Mosby as inspiration. He is someone with more emotional endurance than anybody I have ever seen. Finding, winning, losing, and not giving up on Love is what I live for. “You never know when you’re about to meet someone very important. It’s not like life gives you a warning. You just look up and there they are.” as he would say!

This might be an average American sitcom, but even six years after the season finale where his broken heart, after healing over time, finds love most unexpectedly, has given me more positive hopes for my future than anyone could have, ever!

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